june 2- 2025

Old goals of implants, a girlfriend/wife, good job has been trashed again like many of my goals. The bestselling novel is definitely not going to happen.  new goals include paying off 10,000 Creditcard debt. 3,000 small loans. Keeping up with my payments on unemployment. Losing 100lbs. Moving to Rocester Ny. The minim wage versus Santa Barbara and Rochester is only a $1. Getting work as a security guard is also possible in Ny as well as working with the homeless. Still working on getting security guard cad guard in California and then getting a Kob. The plan while changing still has consistency. The credit plan is done. I now only need to pay them off and cancel several with monthly fees. The need to lose 100lbs is a top priority with finding a job. Drinking more and smoking. Losing wieght is most important. On the low carb diet. 

I expect to see where I am at one the first check from security guard job comes through and then by end of year. I am changing the 5 year plan to the 3 year plan. Hoping I can be living in Rochester NY by 2030. Virginia while it has the beach has been canceled as account of low wages. Relocating to NY means that I dont have to live in California for the next 10 years. I have given up on getting a girlfriend in this state as they only ruin and cause chaos in my life.

The writing has continued and have to accept that while I can create stories and write poetry. I am horrible with strucure, grammar, building a story and other things that novelists die.

I feel O have lost my london ghostwriter/editor. Interview new ghostwriters to replace her. one was a dud. The second one i m still thinking about. Giving me accurate details of my downfall and defiance's.