October 16, 2024

 I am si depressed. I am in Las Vegas and is sad. ber is si expensive at night. Yet that the best time. want to a Asini the other night and lost my $20 quick. going to the other casino I did better at later tonight Safari or Sahara. Typing on m small Microsoft laptop. Found out my wrist band screws me up. Can't get rid of the dread. waiting until 10:30 for lynch then 1:00pm for presentation and seeing what my $200 coupon covers. at be a foot massage. broke down Nd bought vodka a=nd Kaliha. Gad a drink=k this n=morning. Buying Kalah and vodka when I get back. I have to admit my addiction to alcohol makes me feel better then my addiction to porn. If this is what I have to do to make e happy what's wrong with that? I'm not hurting anyone, and it hooks me, =. What's wrong with that. If my depression ended, I could quit drinking. It gets e through the day.

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