(Anger Notes) -4-

 Patricia

I don't remember the first time we met or in saw you. I do remember the last. You used to come over my house to my room. Remember your family being darker skin maybe Spanish like Leo. I don't remember your last name. You Lived down the street from my court I do remember that. I don't remember us kissing. I do remember that time when I asked you to take off your bathing suit. Sop we must have been swimming.  You didn't want to as you had on a one piece. So im sure we did it before. When you didn't. I took my pants down showing you how easy and quick it would be.Then my FUCVKING sister opened the door without knocking and saw me with my pants down. Then I had to keep the door open from then on. I had started a fire ion the house and my mother said I could come outside and play with you or you rather inside so no one would ever know I wasn't still punished. Then you disappeared. Those are my only memories of you. I remember you like it was yesterday. The bathing suit you wore. You were flat crested and a year older then me. Im sure I saw your pussy but don't remember it or when or where. Probably my bedroom before my mFucking Sister ruined my life. I remember seeing you at school. I was going to a class up the hall and you down the hall. You saw ,e and gave me a sad look. I wanted to talk to you so bad. And then you were gone forever. I don't remember seeing you ever again. Im sorry . I lost you. I missed you so much. I still do. Patricia. I wish I could go back and make sure my sister never opened that door. You have taken off your one piece and I got to see you naked again ijn all your young beauty. Met you later. |Hugged you kissed you. Made love to you. Make you cum and moan. I am truly that I never got the chance. Im not sure how old we were 5-7. Before broidget before John. It seems at that time i was normal. When I was with you. I was strong. I was dominant. Not a nice guy. I was very insistent on seeping you naked. I was sure we did it before. It was so normal and expected. I remember my feelings like it was yesterday and how I hate this. How I can gop back and see you and feel like I felt. It seems like I am already there. Itr is so crystal clear. Why didn't you find mer after class. Why did you leave and abandon me . O will never know. I love you [atricia. O miss you so bad. Forgive me if i did anything I don't remember that hurt you. I am truly sorry. I grieve you Patricia. I grieve you so much.