October 4, 2024

 Today I feel the world has changed again. I am glad every day is a new day. I hope for that and glad for that. Reading more and watching Netflix more. Both things that take care of my boredom. I feel my mind is often not at rest. I am thinking go a tie. First, I must button my shirt to the next to last button and get comfortable with that. In 10 years, I want to leave California. Mu biggest and longest goal. I'll be 66 years old... Almost ready to take out my social security. I am figuring no less Thern $50,000 in cash. $25,000 in Credit. I know I will have to give away almost all of my belongings. Except my clothes. I am going to try to drink my water. One cup of coffee and then water. I had one coffee cup of water today. My vacation list is paid and complete till March of next year. I know after each vacation my thoughts and goals will change. I am trying to live ion the present while looking for the future. I am jealous of jimmy not of his life though of his popularity. Hus promotion to case manager and his own desk. I think I will keep on drinking. I feel these journals are very beneficial and helping me. Each goal I set and make are beneficial and life changing. My thinking seems to change daily. No more Pixi. No more bread. No more peanut butter. Though I really like Peanut butter. I sent Flowers for Lilly to London. Working on Shopping for |Madison now. it is very interesting how my titles are different as well as the story lines though I still repeat certain story lioness.  I may repeat some stuff in these journals as they Aare on my mind. I will be 1 year at Santa Barbara Rescue mission tomorrow and making $48000 a year. It might not be a big deal to other people but it is a big Dewal to me. I have never made $8,000 in a year before or $22.00 an hour before and cannot leave until I make that income or higher until I am 66 years old. but of course, by then I could be making $30 an hour. |The thing that bothers me most About Sanantan Barabra is the cold ocean/. In the swimmer v virginial nis much warmer It's not really anything else b Ut there cost of doing things. The bowling an alley may be just as far in Norfolk, Richmond and Florida/ Not rurally interested in the movies. Girls are the same everywhere. Rhonda doesn't like me like I hoped. I hoped anyone liked me, but they don't bedsides Noraa.  Am I re4aslly surprised?> No.