October 9, 2024

 Today was different then yesterday. My ego got built up as Jeri told me I be taking over jimmies duties in maintence, bug day and ordering.I also did some shopping. Forgot the book for aveline. There is some discord between Abigail and Arron. i can see Aaron quiting before Abagial is fired. Thinking about Vegas. More responsibility means more than I can fail or fuck up. The weekends are really bad and will probaly continue to dobe so. I dont see any change in that. I feel las vegas will be hard. I am off with my new schedule. May look again at booking a hotel and going away. Maybe nbot as far as sMinnipolis.. Paid $2000 on my Ussa credit card. Kylen was sitted right next to me and acted like |I wasa there until she noticed me and closed her computer. She alksao had to play with something and changed her hair muptiple times/ She would really be at a long with short hair. Dora will be leaiving nnext week no real loss there. I really think that Mike was offered himmies task first that woiuld make sense and if aaron quir he would fiull the top spot. I have another coupon for Old Navy in Novemeber. It is defintiley a transition at work. My credit plan is moving along as planned. |Now I need to keep working and saviong money. Gainining new responsibilities at work and ipdating my resume It will be a process. Maybe it was a mistake to bring up changing the baf room days. Jeri didnt seem to like that. Kind of like airing out dirty laundy in public. I honestly can say that things are not moving as planned or positive, I have a polace to live, all bills are paid, Not that I would blow extra money like other people. I make enough money to provide for myself. Not that I do much. Of course with kids or a wife'girlfriend it would be different. as woman always want to be entertained. Getting fucked is nev er enough/ We would be so much better without them I swear. Maybe its my age or background or envirooment.  I can rewmmeebre me being different at one point. And |David who didnt want to do anything on the days he worked and not understanding. If only I could make one decision and change it. As far back as running away or staying in California the first time or going to school to be an emit or even waiting for Carrie or fucking Wendy instead of Jeanette or even applying for housing myself when I got here. Going to Alaksa or Hawaii instead of Florida or ewven Montanas how my whole life would be changed. I know right now I can not change my direction. My desiicions are made and must contnie on my current path.

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