October 6 2024

 Today is over and it is a relieve. Good points of the day are two awesome hugs from Aveline. Nice really nice titties/breasts. I know the love has nothing to do with sex. I am now just a word from the women. The hugs and feeling her nice breasts pressed against mt Ches t was still nice though. Rhonda was a problem. Can't believe she actually thought a would want to fuck her. Aveline yes, Jessica yes Rhonda definitely not. It was very upsetting to hear that Abilgail also has access to the amazon account. I can see things in a better light. Though it is time. i have been there a year. A year is the time frame when everything becomes clear. My wight as an employee is worthless no matter how many ideas, I give the company for the sole reasons that I am not from the program and that I do not possess a college degree. Can we say strike One. Except that I cannot get a job using my brain more, seeing naked woman, hugging woman and//or making more money. O am at a dead end again. The reason I left so many other jobs before. Dead end jobs. If I was a manager at any of the jobs before except maybe in Houma Louisan I would have probably stayed. So now I fight the dream of finding a better job. I am still shooting for the 10-year plan. Filling my work hours with writing, Netflix and reading. It is hard though as I am so often ignored.

 What can I do. Nothing. It is my life and no matter how hard I try to accept it is so hard and hurtful. I am powerless though. Definitely to many self-help books in my younger years. I now am powerless because of my family system, background and lack of an education. |No matter how smart I try to make myself. Without the paper it is worthless. Set book of poetry to be formatted. Looking forward to Vegas and my check. Paying off USAA. That is all for the month of October. |My highlights for today were the hugs with Adaliene and the knowledge that no one sees me as eye candy or likes me. I was a very sad day indeed.

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