October 26. 2024

 Today I started a new story, to relive my head about jimmy and heir. it's all I think about. It was good not to have a drink until I took a shower and only one drink. Thinking good will or the Hilton would be a good place for my next job. Don't think Guidone into me. Think I failed the test today. Any way she is pout of my league any way and she is dark.  Brog boobs big bitt. overweight. health problems. probably because of her wieght.50% of all my credit cards will take my next check next week. the 9th. Got to change somethings in the story to make to 19 plus. London is going to kill my cash. Might have to scale back in credit cards. It's going to be a tight end of the year. Glad I'm not going to ocean side. Good discoing. Shouldn't have gone to Las Vegas and given up airline. Oh well I went overspent on food and it's over. Since I cut off mark Oon showers and cell phone charging, I haunt seem him. Thats what I figured. No Suprise there. Hopefully I keep my job long enough to get Christmas bonus. need to be there for 3 years to be fully vested. I am trying really hard to kick the porn, masturbation and alcohol. Right now, they are my three sins. And keep the seasonal depression away. Havant felt it since Vegas. Which is good as it is horrible. I can see my eyesight being the only reason that I couldn't be a a case manager. But Jimmy's ego blew up when he became part of the team. I can see it as plain as day. Need to start walking to work. I need to try to push myself tomorrow and every day. Shoes Arnt a good excuse. Listen to my audio books. I got to do it. No plans for the new year besides my vacations to Seattle and Hawaii. Paying off credit cards. 

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