October 25, 2024

I was happy to hear that step down is finding a hard yamen replacing me. met new employee today. Tall, nice ass and tits. Very Spanish and maybe a little Asian in her eyes. Very Christian. Not sure if she goes to church.  Decided this wasnt5 the week to wait drinking. Drink then takes my sequel and sleep. Had a great dream swimming at the most beautiful ocean with big waves. Told it was somewhere in the Mediterranee. It was so beautiful. Ha Dit while listening to grief meditations. still very angry. I noticed I get all giddy whenever A pretty girl wants to talk to me. Part of my affliction. I can't hello it and it saddens me greatly though it feels good like a drug. Another shipment of food. I threw out a bunch. over a week of sick time. I am very angry over jimmy stealing my post it notes. Got my rapid card but don't know how not use it. Not canceled yet. Case management promotion was definitely an ego booster for him and being part of Kylen's elite crew. I hope has happy he definitely wasn't at HGS. Glad to be rid of him. Hopefully he stays away. I should have two more days with ought him in the office or coming over to intervene. Missed Addie at the big meeting yesterday. very hot.
Goals are to pay off all credit cards by end of year and prepare for Seattle in Fearey. Don't know why I'm always thinking it march. Ectara day off in November and 2 in December. I really don't care since I'm not going away. My off days are bed days anyway. No, their goals except for Hawaii and key west after Seattle... Pay off credit cards, pay on liana and wait for credit inquires to come off. Bought a pair of pants too small. it happens. Okay time to close. getting distracted, my mind is going. coat rack great idea. Much better than crock pot or blender which I never use. Looking forward to Virginias.

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