October 23, 2024

 Had the weekly meeting today. I feel I am a force in the meetings and found it hard to keep quiet. Jimmy stole my post it notes. He had no right. His core personality is coming out. Jeri Anne knocked down my idea to throw out womans belongings as I thought Sahe would. Wanted her permission before I did it for fear of repercussions even though Mike reentered company policy. Mike seems to have something against me. Maybe me wanting more responsibility and taking a lead at work. I would have no problem with him taking over the pest control. My wrist hurts when I yes it. My penis still hurts from time and time again. At over 10,000 weirds with the Owners. I got to 10,000 quick. Not exactly dead and without story yet. Who knows maybe I can make it to 15,000. No vacations till March. Credit cards getting massed again. it's a good thing I canceled Oceanside. Shouldn't have gone to Las Vegas that cost me over a $1000 but it's down and only $250n was gambled away. Threw away three shirts and bought two more pants. Not jeans but not dress slacks either. I'm working up to it. Not going to Buty anymore jeans. No plan on buying any more shirt yet till I clean out my inventory. Only really need three sets of Dress clothes since I only work 3 days during the week. Trying not to drink to 6pm and only one drink. did my laundry today well two loads. Missed the electric meeting rebate. Surprised at my plot and story lines in The Owners. wasn't really going for what I got. It turned out better than I thought. Getting to 5000 was harder than getting to 10,000. Did my x ray. Tomorow is bug day. almost canceled by Aarion. Could thing i keep an eye son log note. I don't think Jeri knows as much as I do regarding case management. Whatever. It more of a political thing anyway in my opinion. One more day off. Seems like a lifetime since I left Las Vegas. Skipped a week of Journal writing and it shows. Need to push myself to walk. it's so hard like drinking water. I have to reminding myself to do it. Thats the only way it'll happen. Coat rack is up and looks great.

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