October 14, 2024

Mmark is here again. in announced he is worst then a woman. Carrying all his shit around in a cart. Got my $100 back. Gambling money. Thinking again of Salt Lkae city for Christmas. I book and cancel the hotel. I haunt booked the plane flight thought it is pretty cheap. Not quite ready to make a commitment. Maybe I can just stay in my hotel room for three days. I think the airport, getting a uber and going through check in is the hardest part. I have my bag packed already and ready to go. Only need to buy cigarettes. I am amazed at these homeless people and I mamoty surprised they are where they are, and CS is taking all this training and meetings to try to house them. It's really a waste of time in my opinion. A lot of them don't want the help or our incapable of receiving it. My wrist still hurts, and I wonder what would have happened if I didn't have insurance. I know it's my fault for my getting his insurance information. Calling the police, etc. I don't like how I am feeling. I am glad that I finally got off the porn. I hate feeling like this and would rather be working. Now I have on getting mark out of here so i can go get my cigarettes and get some sleep or toss and turn most of the night since I sleep better during the day or after work. Didnt really feel like writing today. Do I ever. Everything seels so drudery. I only enjoy going to work as If I am still being abused and hurt.

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