Journal October 2, 2024

 I didn't get much sleep last night. slept 2 hours awake for a half hour. no nap no alcohol. Starting to re write stories. More showing than telling. Learning little tricks. Applied and sent transcripts to Oxnard college. Easier than I thought. Got a pay raise. I am now at 48.000 a year. I don't need the ego boosters anymore. Really, I don't. Mark is being a pain. I feel sorry for Jimmy. I really do and the people has getting to case manage which is real way too quick. I don't really think it was all Jeri. Or all Jimmy threatening to leave. He is the star and very popular like at high school with the program people. He is already feeling the stress. No more fantasy football question is how long his ego will hold him up and how long before he breaks. My new goals remain unchanged. save $5000 a year. 10 years that $50,000 for retirement plus my 401 k. Two troops a year. My first is Portland. I just paid for my sleeper car to Portland. It's done. I am taking the train top Portland on my birthday. I need to adjust my hotel now and arrange for my flight back. Then plan for my second vacation in the fall or winter of 2025. Booked my hotel at the Downtown Portland Hilton Hotel. I suppose it is old for such a cheap price.

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